I totally hate myself right this moment.

I didn't officially sign up or anything, but I was kinda trying my had at NaNo this year in an unofficial capacity. I also hadn't told anyone because I wasn't sure I could actually do it and didn't want to admit that my patheticness if I couldn't. But it was easy. It was fun. It was good. It was 37,523 words at last count. It is now GONE!!!!! I don't know what happened. I saved it. I did. Don't look at me like that. I clicked save. But now I can't find it anywhere on my hard drive. And the CD I had it backed up on has huge gouges in it from the dog, so it's unusable.

I'm officially giving up on it. I may try again next year, I dunno. Right now, I have a few things in mind for Xander, so if I can work up the wherewithall to worry with it, I may work on that.

At this very moment? I'm going to work to stand around and mope.

Bye.

P.S. - Why isn't there a suicidal mood on here? We really need one of those.