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Watching these infomercials in the middle of the night should probably be made illegal. Tonight they had one about a CD collection called Totally 80s. I don't spend a great deal of time actively seeking out memories of my past, I'd rather avoid the things that cause my depression to deepen, but I suddenly find myself missing so many things about the 80s, with the exception of a few very noteable times.
I can remember the song that was playing at the skating rink the first time Sammy and I skated the couples round. It was Right Stuff by New Kids on the Block. I had never liked any of their music before that night, but when Sammy kissed me in a dark corner and told me that I had the right stuff, I immediately fell in love. With the song too.
I remember the game we were playing when my brother and I had the fight that broke our 'boom box', lol. It was Asteroids, on atari. OMG, I feel old.
I can remember going down to the arcade, owned my now sister-in-laws family, and playing Madonna on the jukebox and dancing with Sammy or when my dad would come with us and taught me and my brother to play pool.
Riding my bike around town with my cousins. Walking along the railroad tracks as far as we could, just to see what was out there. Going to school and actually having friends that wanted nothing more than my company, and my gossip.
There are the regrets too.
That the last words I ever said to my father were "I hate you", and over something so stupid like giving my brother $10 to go to the arcade and me only $5.
Not listening when my Granny told us her stories about when she was growing up.
Listening to the people that told me how worthless I am.
Most of the time, I wouldn't go back and relive any of my life for anything in the world. But there are a few times, moments maybe, when I sit and wonder what would happen if I could go back to my favorite times and live them again. Be that happy again. Because now, in hindsight, I can see just how happy I was, even if I thought differently at the time.
I also started wondering how others felt about this. So that's my question to you guys. Do you ever think about a specific time period in your own life that you'd like to go back and relive, with your current knowledge or not. Are there times that make you want them again so bad that it's literaly a physical ache inside you?
I can remember the song that was playing at the skating rink the first time Sammy and I skated the couples round. It was Right Stuff by New Kids on the Block. I had never liked any of their music before that night, but when Sammy kissed me in a dark corner and told me that I had the right stuff, I immediately fell in love. With the song too.
I remember the game we were playing when my brother and I had the fight that broke our 'boom box', lol. It was Asteroids, on atari. OMG, I feel old.
I can remember going down to the arcade, owned my now sister-in-laws family, and playing Madonna on the jukebox and dancing with Sammy or when my dad would come with us and taught me and my brother to play pool.
Riding my bike around town with my cousins. Walking along the railroad tracks as far as we could, just to see what was out there. Going to school and actually having friends that wanted nothing more than my company, and my gossip.
There are the regrets too.
That the last words I ever said to my father were "I hate you", and over something so stupid like giving my brother $10 to go to the arcade and me only $5.
Not listening when my Granny told us her stories about when she was growing up.
Listening to the people that told me how worthless I am.
Most of the time, I wouldn't go back and relive any of my life for anything in the world. But there are a few times, moments maybe, when I sit and wonder what would happen if I could go back to my favorite times and live them again. Be that happy again. Because now, in hindsight, I can see just how happy I was, even if I thought differently at the time.
I also started wondering how others felt about this. So that's my question to you guys. Do you ever think about a specific time period in your own life that you'd like to go back and relive, with your current knowledge or not. Are there times that make you want them again so bad that it's literaly a physical ache inside you?
